Allan's Space

`Relax la bro` i should have told myself. Don`t give myself those unwanted stress, it won`t be helping me anyway. It is quite daunting experience, how come the issue suddenly appeared in my dream? It is very tiring at least you know you have less control ability and isn`t going to help you much even though keep on reminding the alertness and awareness sense of urgency. I know it is a new thing for me, i `m adapting it, whether i like it or not, it is just too early, i will tell myself, don`t make things so complicated, have a better live, enjoy yourself among friends and have a healthy level of stress. No point to force yourself into such miserable condition, it is just too silly.

It starts the whole new experience, i have to point out one thing before i go on with others, it is an answer for everyone, questioning the validity of admitting and studies in form 6. First i`m joining the college by my forecast result. In fact they didn`t even bother about my forecast, they never ask for a copy or whatsoever qualification i had. It will really soon reveal that my capability after the CNY, the answer is less than a month away. Why i start now? I don`t want to waste my time in waiting for the the uncertain reply, no point one has to waste entire 7 months of life on the supremacy of excessive bureaucracy, after 7 months of waiting, congratulation if you got an offer letter from any IPTA but don`t end it with a joke.

Is there any nicer food around this Brickfield Asia college? Getting bore with those generic chicken rice everyday, the ever unchanged of white coffee`s caffeine and much more typical `fried kuey tiao`. The dullness of Mamak store too. I appeal to all traders out there, don`t raise the price, you can feel the burden especially one is a regularly eating outside.

System kills all processes, lets sleep now.

I have consulted several course coordinators during the last education fair. Now, i might have a better picture of the course itself. But the more details i know the more factor to be considered by me. Finally, my family and i able to reach an agreement. I will continue my studies, i`m reading law now. I have to choose a college and a university as i will opt for transfer credit program. The local college isn`t create too much trouble for me, after all there is only two leading law colleges in Malaysia, both achievement in term of academic are impressive and competitive. The college will commence very soon, this means that i`m going to revoke myself from NEET status, I`m going to college.

A series of serious family matters make me feel the sense of urgency, i have to complete my studies within the shortest period. This comes totally different from what i previously thinking of, i used to think that i`m young, it is OK to do something slowly and leisurely pace, waiting or wasting time on red-tape isn`t a good thing, i can wait, what about others? I`m talking about the registration process and intake for local university in Malaysia. Why it takes so long to get a student settle and study. Maybe the system itself is to spoil any Malaysian youth with massive visionary, as time passes, it washes away one passion. Let say the four major local universities in Malaysia able to maintain its student quality, the performance and achievement is not deteriorating. How about the rest?

Too many people convince me to leave here, go to some places where people treat each other fair and square. But i`m obliged to bring this country back to the right track. I will do it by my way.

Last night, i had a talk with two of my friend during a Shisha Pipe session. I was about to make a very important decision regarding my further studies. I wanted to listen to more advices and guidance before making this huge decision. The stake is high, it involves my family and myself. It is inevitable that think thoroughly before really commit into it. I shall give myself a deadline to put full stop on this or should i go with the flow?

I want to see this country become a developed country as all. I want to correct the system and bring good to country future. Maybe i shouldn`t struggle for this country anymore, too much price has been paid and it only goes further and badly corrupted. Is that i should choose Malaysia only as last resort?

Meeting with not-so-good-friend is merely talking about surface and general. Some will prefer gossip, so that the whole discussion will get more interesting. Some talk like a `canon` without the hesitation they can exaggerate and manipulate thing that never exist, if it is there, could you mind to prove it with a real facts and figures. I don`t mind people keep on talking for living, but don`t live to talk and endless-talk.

I shall use this entry to conclude all 2009 entries. Have a merry Christmas and great year in 2010.

"If you’re not doing something with your life, then it doesn’t matter how long you live. If you’re doing something with your life, then it doesn’t matter how short your life may be. A life is not measured by years lived, but by its usefulness. If you are giving, loving, serving, helping, encouraging, and adding value to others, then you’re living a life that counts!"

The system is all wrong, the doctrine of power separation is not longer exist. There are politicians out there become the manipulator for every issue. Is this part of democracy? i know system is flaw because it is human made. It is created by the power hunger politicians those want nothing but power to acquire wealth.It is sad, currently rules and laws are amended by politicians with multiple of interests as well as who are always trying to take advantage on the system. It is not good if the country led by lawyers, they will manipulate the field which they are really good in it, they will come out with idea and policy that oriented solely to law and complicate a simple issue. As a layman, for me lawyer`s job is to make things difficult to comprehend and that is the main point. A doctor? Irony, things will work good initially.Doctors are good in simplifying problem and problem solving oriented, but lack of long term judgment. Do you realize that medication often create side effects? Some will never know until it shows some signs. What about a group of engineer? Are they capable to lead this country? What am i try to point out is, the perspective come from each profession is different.

Imagine this, simple majority won by a component party, prime minister is select from one of them, subsequently appoint government friendly chief justice, IGP and AG by PM. PM forms a Cabinet, contains all his comrade. All ministry post is filled by his own people. So this is the way, he drafts a bill, he legally pays his man to vote in parliament and eventually it passes. Anyone can stop it? By what mean?

• Protest? (FRU will shoot you with tear gas and water canon)
  
• Tender memo? (Throw aside or burn it)
  
• Sue the government in ICJ (It takes a century for a case to rule)
  
• How about a radical Massive bombing? ( Curfew act lifted, armies are free to kill anyone they like)

No way to stop that, it is Bolehland, prime minister is the country master. Is there any real check and balance role playing by rulers? What can a YDPA do when some imbalance is found? Any provision or act given to rulers to stop that?

This country has its favorite, to place full stop on every so called `sensitive issue`, avoiding problem isn`t going to help, it will create more misunderstanding in the future. Time to accept the differences between us but we will never tolerate the corrupted leaders out there. I don`t want any face lift or surface change, i want a change that brings good.

It passes so fast, without endure much stressful and torturing experience. Today it will mark the end of my STPM exam, should i say as the last paper of Public exam, i guess there will be no more public exam for me. Last week was the week i started a greatest project of the century and i`m able to complete the test run of Hackintosh on a crawling intel Celeron laptop. Yes, i did it. I have successfully installed a different kind of OS into the machine. Moreover, all the driver issues have been solved and perform perfectly. Initially, i thought installing a Mac into a non-apple pc can be pretty simple, but it didn`t, in fact i have gone through several sleep less night to get all the problem fix. I`m very glad and excited with all brand new look of Acer Aspire 3680.